There are so many things that I have been wanting to write about but I didn’t know how to word everything but first I just wanted to say thank you for all of the support that most of you have given me about my engagement to be married. It means a lot to me and to my fiancé Carson. I am very excited to move forward with my life and to be a wife to him.
A topic that has been a lot on my mind is the topic of love. Like I’ve said before, love is a powerful emotion. There isn’t a limit of love that we can give to others. This emotion can grow and expand throughout our lifetimes. I once brought up the comparison of having a baby- even though I don’t have any kids of my own. When a mother has a child, she probably thinks that she will never love another baby the same way that she does for them. But what I have seen in my life from the mothers surrounding me, is that they love all of their children the same. Their love GROWS for each child. Their love is expounded beyond measure. I think it is a Christlike attribute to be able to love. Christ is the exemplar of this and I think it is important to know that.
To all of the people who may possibly think that I love Caleb any less because I am getting remarried- shame. On. You.
I don’t have to prove my love for Caleb. I already have. I truly gave my heart, soul, and mind to him. I supported him when he had none. I married him for the humble person he was and because he showed me how to be a better disciple of Christ. I will always cherish him- forever and ever and ever. It really hurts me when others think that I have just moved on from him and our sweet memories. He will always be apart of me.
Just because I am getting remarried does not mean that I don’t mourn the loss of my lovey. It still hurts and sometimes is immovable, but Carson has helped me cope with the pain and helped widen my perspective of God’s plan. I am thankful for love and that I can share that with more than one person.
I hope that whoever reads this will understand that love is powerful and a gift that God has given His children to help them move forward through pain.