A woman at church spoke about an instance she had with her husband many years ago. She posed the question to him, "If you had a crystal ball and asked to see the future, would you still have married me?" Her husband thought about it for some time and responded, "No. I wouldn't have married you. It would have been too hard to see all of the heartache and tribulations that we would have to suffer through. I would have been too afraid."
Can you imagine being able to see into the future? You would be able to see the life that you would build, the good times and all of the bad. It would be pretty astonishing to see, but it would also be traumatizing to see the hard times. It would create debilitating fear and cause us to never live the life that we were destined to live. We would be afraid of making a mistake and never venture out beyond our own comfort. We would never learn the lessons that we would need to learn. We would never find the need to use our agency and make decisions for ourselves. We would never be able to progress. Doesn't that sound miserable?
Thankfully, this is not the case. It's a good thing we don't have a crystal ball. It is a blessing that we must live this life by faith and not by sight. If this wasn't the case, we would not be able to grow. We would be paralyzed.
I often think of my brief time with Caleb and how I cherish that time. It hurts me that I did not get to have him and keep him with me for a long time before sweetly surrendering him to our Maker. If I had a crystal ball, I would be shattered to see that this was going to happen to him and I. I never imagined that I would be a 22 year old widow. I never anticipated that I would have to pick out a casket. I never thought I would have to live to bury my soulmate at such a young age. If I had seen this, I don't think I would be able to live and enjoy life.
Thank goodness for faith. Even though the future is full of uncertainty, we don't have to be uncertain with who we are. We do not have to walk this journey alone even though we may have anxiety about how it will all go down in the end. We don't need to know, we just hope for things that are not seen which are true.
You don't need a crystal ball. Christ can reassure you and help guide you along your path of life.
Love, Marissa J